It was so great going back to work today. I didn’t know who I needed to see or where I needed to go or where anything was but man was it great to just be at work.
It is awesome to be in an active flying squadron again where I know I have a future. It is no one’s fault that my last squadron didn’t feel that way, simply the nature of the transition, but it is refreshing to be somewhere new.
It likely will still be a couple of weeks before I actually get to fly courtesy of paperwork and such, but I am getting closer and it is amazing.
Life is just good right now and I’m happy. I know some people don’t like to vocalize that because they think they will jinx it, but I am learning more and more that it is actually much better to acknowledge it.
I truly am excited to be here and excited to start a new long term adventure. I know I have plenty to learn and that excites me too. It is so great to feel gainfully employed after a nice break.
I have always really enjoyed writing. Even when I was in school I loved being able to take in a bunch of information and form it into a worthwhile discussion of whatever topic it was I had been assigned.
Now that I am older I get to write whatever I want to, and it is so much fun. It is way better when people read what you wrote and comment favorably, but there is something incredibly fulfilling about putting in good work on a piece and feeling good about it.
At the same time it is really scary when you put in all that work because people may not like it. They may criticize what you wrote, or worse, they may prove you are wrong.
These exact thoughts have kept me from writing in the past, and I fear they likely will again at some point, but right now I am just enjoying putting out as much as I can that I want.
I am currently writing a book, which is something I have always wanted to do but always been to afraid to actually do. As I finish each chapter it is amazing how rewarding it is to get it done.
I have no idea if anyone will read it, but I am learning so much about myself and my past in the process that it is totally worth it either way. In the end I feel like I have a message to share and I hope others will benefit from it as well.
It is amazing how common it is for fulfilling things to also be a little bit scary, but I guess that makes sense because it is only the things that challenge is and expand our limits that are truly fulfilling. that’s why I am grateful for the scary and fulfilling skill of writing.
What are you thankful for?